I'm not inclined to resign to maturity
13 April 2014 @ 08:17 pm
God, I haven't posted since January. Sorry about, LJ and LJ friends. There just isn't much going on in my own life and it's so much easier to just reblog funny pictures of animals or pretty Merlin graphics over on Tumblr. I don't just want to use my LJ to complain about things. Sometimes it is nice to get things off your chest, but just as often I'll feel bad later for complaining.

I'm still seeing my shrink every 6 weeks or so just to check in. I've started going to an acupuncturist and I love it. My insurance doesn't cover this place so it's $90 a visit but I think it's worth it. I've only been 3 times so far so I want to go for at least another month or so to see if there's any long term benefits. It's not just needles either. They hook me up to electricity so the pulses get deeper into my tissue. Here's a picture of my neck I had my mom take so I could see what it looked like. Picture under cutCollapse )

Other than that I'm just working, trying to catch up with all the crap I've DVR'd, and trying to find motivation and energy to break out of the rut I live in. I've been trying to be a bit more creative. At lunch on Friday, I was drawing and my coworker was paining with pastels. We're all clearly stressed and looking for outlets. I'd like to read more and work on my drawing. I was never super serious before but I did draw a lot more often. Mostly Sailor Moon stuff but I drew my own left hand once and really liked it. I'm just so jealous of fanartists and I'd like to be able to draw what I like. I know you get better with practice but some people just have a gift. And I don't even have patience.

Oh! And William Shatner responded to me on Twitter so LIFE = MADE.

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18 January 2014 @ 10:16 pm


So begins another yearCollapse )
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01 January 2014 @ 09:19 pm
And while it's still the 1st here:


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24 December 2013 @ 08:39 pm
It's also, sadly, the anniversary of Arthur's death and the series finale of Merlin. We've been celebrating and mourning on Tumblr. I want to rewatch the finale but I'm also scared. I know if I do, I'll end up a mess and I'm not sure if I want to cry myself to sleep tonight. I have to be up early to go to my dad's for Christmas. Plus I already have a cold and the last thing I need is to cry and make my nose even more plugged up.

On the plus side, my mom and I randomly decided to go to Pier 39 today. We got lunch from Boudin, walked around a bit, played one of those theater games where you shoot zombies and aliens (so much fun), and since I had forgotten to take my Merlin and Arthur action figures out of my purse, I decided to take a pic of them sightseeing ^_^

Here they are admiring Alcatraz.

There was also a Sherlock minisode released today but I can't even talk about that right now. Between Merlin today, Doctor Who tomorrow (can't wait for Capaldi but I'm not ready to say goodbye to Matt), and Sherlock on New Year's Day, I just can't any more.
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17 December 2013 @ 09:06 pm
My fandom stocking is up here. Link me yours if you have one too :D
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17 December 2013 @ 12:49 pm
A day or so after I got back from London, I woke up with a sore throat. It felt like I was swallowing glass. It sucked massively but I figured I'd get sick from all the traveling and flying. However, last night I woke up about 1am because it felt like my throat was swollen and when I breathed in to cough, it felt like I couldn't get enough air. It got bad enough that I woke my mom up and we drove to the emergency room. They listened to my breathing and looked at my throat. Lungs sounded clear and throat was only irritated. Doc said I have an upper respiratory infection and that since it's a virus, I really just have to wait it out. I'm trying to drink plenty of fluids and I got cough medicine but otherwise I just have to wait. I've called in sick today and we'll see about tomorrow.

I'm pretty sure I also had a panic attack which made it harder to breathe. It still feels a bit like I'm trying to breathe under water, but before it was nearly impossible to even take a breath.
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I'm back in the states. And I felt fine yesterday - had brunch and then watched the new Hobbit movie with my mom. Unfortunately during the night, I woke up with a sore throat and an achy body. Once I have more energy, I'll try to write up a bit about my London trip. For now though, I need as much sleep as possible since I have work tomorrow. Not sure I could get away with calling in sick right after my vacation. I miss London but I'm thankful to be back in my own bed. Now, off to watch all the TV I've recorded in the last week and a half.
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05 December 2013 @ 09:21 pm

I landed yesterday around 2pm. Took the tube and found my hotel. Tried my hardest to stay awake and get used to London time but started falling asleep around six. Woke up wide awake at 3am so called mom since it was only 7pm at home. Went back to sleep but I'm still suffering from a head cold and it was hard to stay asleep. Got a late start today and really only went out to go watch Mojo, with Colin Morgan.

The night before the play, I asked on Tumblr if anyone else was going and wanted to meet up. I actually met up with someone who I wasn't even friends with. She was really nice though. We got food and she showed me a bit around the area before the show started. She's from Singapore but comes here often. Sometimes I really like talking to strangers online ;)

It had rained during the play and it was dark and freezing, so afterwards I went straight back to the hotel. Got sandwiches and crips from a shop for dinner. Right now I'm in my pjs watching TV.

Anyway, that's all so far. Just wanted to say hi and say I made it alive. LJ won't let me post pictures rn but I've posted a couple on twitter (spacemonkeyluvn) if you wanna take a look.

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17 November 2013 @ 11:48 pm
I feel like doing cards again this year so leave yo address in a (SCREENED) comment below. Or you know, email me at emrys [at] starfleet [dot] com. Let me know if you'd prefer a specific holiday otherwise the default will probably be winter/Christmas. I don't actually have the cards yet so I'm not sure. PS I will gladly mail cards anywhere on Earth. Not sure if anyone is still around LJ these days but I love sending and getting cards.

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Anyone want to laugh and/or cry with me?

I know what I'll be doing for the next couple weeks at least - reading all the Thorki fics I can find.
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28 October 2013 @ 10:10 pm
I made a graphic thingy in PS for the first time in ages. I wanted to play around on PS again and I needed some motivation so I signed up for a Merlin Graphic Battle on Tumblr. My first graphic can be found here.

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19 October 2013 @ 06:54 pm
So I'm planning on going back to London this December (4-13). 1. because one of my ultimate goals is to go back once every year and 2. because I really want to see Colin Morgan in his new play, Mojo (with Rupert Grint and Ben Whishaw among others).

I was hoping to go with the friend I went with last time to see The Mighty Boosh but she can't go. I've already requested the time off from work so I guess for the first time, I'm traveling by myself. I won't lie, I'm terrified. I know for some people traveling on their own is nothing. And I'm going to England for crying out loud. I speak English and I've been there before. I'm a mix of excited, disbelief, and anxious. I'm scared my anxiety will overpower everything though and I really don't want that. I know that I don't do a lot. I also know there is a lot I would not enjoy doing. But I do want to try a bit more. Get out. Do things I guess. Be just a bit less of a hermit.

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Anyway, I don't want to focus on that since that was from a few days ago anyway and I've mostly moved on from it ;) So... London! I already bought tix to the play (still debating about seeing it more than once) and my plane tix. I need to pay off my credit card this week and then I can book a hotel. I know I'm going to the play. I really want to go to Warwick Castle to see the Merlin tower. I most likely will, I just don't know how that'll work since I don't drive. I probably want to do Camden again. I want to finally go on the London Eye. But I don't have that many specific things I want to do I guess. I contacted a friend of a friend on FB and we're going to try meeting up at some point. (She was my friend's roommate at UCSC and now lives in London. She's cool.) But other than that, I have no idea. Any recommendations? Assuming anyone made it this far ;)
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01 October 2013 @ 02:18 pm
Wow I really haven't posted in over 2 months? I want to start posting on LJ again but I've gotten so used to just reblogging stuff on Tumblr. I also have an actual blog that I think I've posted to twice? Lol whoops.

So I don't actually have anything to post about right now. I've taken the day off work for my birthday and I'm being super lazy. I feel kind of bad for not trying to hang out with friends but it's hard in the middle of the week. I don't want to do anything. I'll try to do something this weekend. I really want to watch Gravity even though I know it'll just give me panic attacks and nightmares.

Today though, I'm just laying in bed and watching everything that's been building up on my DVR. I want to watch movies or marathon something but I can't find the motivation to start. I'm the most indecisive person I know. So instead I'm dicking around Tumblr all day :P

Oh, I did watch the most recent Ikuta Toma movie since it was finally subbed and I was hit by the realization that I miss his face. And voice and body and acting. I even made a little photoset for Tumblr. I don't even remember when I last made something on PS.

My friend's bday was yesterday though and we're both huge fans of Parks & Rec. Her favorite character is Ron Swanson so I made her a little something:

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06 June 2013 @ 09:55 pm
Ok, so in case you haven't noticed, I'm all about Hannibal right now. I'm only bringing this up again because I was screencapped in a Buzzfeed article about the Hannibal fandom. I'm all the way towards the bottom. I'm spacemonkeyluvn on Twitter and that's a picture I posted of the #EatTheRude business cards I sent to NBC. So if you wanted to see my ugly handwriting, there ya go :D

Vulcans Do Not Feel: surprisedsurprised
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30 May 2013 @ 10:10 pm
I know I'm not on here much, but HANNIBAL WAS RENEWED!!!

I love the Hannibal fandom, or Fannibals as we like to be called. We came out of nowhere but we came together. We sent biz cards with #EatTheRude to NBC. We created new hashtags each week and made them trending topics on Twitter. We Tweeted, we reblogged, we created art. Bryan Fuller retweeted me and favorited a few of my tweets. I love that he's as involved in this as we are. The tags on the NBCHannibal Tumblr are some of my favorite things ever.

Anyway I'm just really excited about my show. Which is on. So I shall say goodnight for now.
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18 April 2013 @ 11:15 pm

I was afraid it would never get here but I got my Merlin Game prizes in the mail today. The ones I won for the Hypable dialog contest (http://spacemonkeyluvn.livejournal.com/447413.html). Got a t-shirt, flash drive, and concept art <3
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14 April 2013 @ 10:30 pm
A bunch of my friends and coworkers have signed up for monthly shipments of random beauty products like Glam Bag (http://www.ipsy.com/theglambag) and Birchbox (http://www.birchbox.com/). While they look and sound awesome, I don't really wear makeup so it would be a bit of a waste for me. I just found out about Loot Crate today though and had to try it out. It's EPIC GEEK + GAMER GEAR NEW EVERY MONTH - 6 to 8 hand-picked epic products. So it's an autoshipment of geeky stuff. The next shipment goes out in 5 days, so if you want to give it a try, now's the time. I'm actually really excited ^_^
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23 March 2013 @ 11:06 pm
I consider it a success that I've done a few things I've been putting off for ages. I finally updated the iOS on my phone and I posted two items for sale on eBay - A Boondock Saints puzzle and A Death Note Nendoroid Figure (L).

My brother and his girlfriend are supposed to be moving out at the beginning of April so my mom and I are going to turn his room into a giant closet. I'm trying to do some Spring cleaning and throwing away, giving away, and selling what I can. If you see something you like on my eBay page and it doesn't sell, feel free to give an offer. I'd like to get back what I spent on the item, but if the other option is just to give/throw it away, something is better than nothing.

I signed up for a free screening of Jurassic Park in 3D on 3/30, a week before it comes out in theaters. It's first come, first serve though so I have a ticket but I'm not guaranteed a seat. That's okay. I've done Comic-Con and I have British blood. I know how to queue. I guess sometimes it actually pays to follow a company on Facebook.

I also hung out with a friend yesterday which was lovely. We had Chinese at our usual place (OMGSOGOOD) and we shopped a bit. I got two nice things for work and such from Lane Bryant (on clearance and used a coupon so I saved over $40) and then two geeky tanks (Doctor Who and zombies) and a Rainbow Dash hoodie from Hot Topic. I ALSO got my Threadless shirts in the mail. Here's a pic of the 2 Threadless shirts and my DW tank from Hot Topic - http://instagram.com/p/XNdVoQgThJ/. I'm getting a head start on shopping for Comic-Con. It's months away but I'm already excited. I just bought a mini backpack because while I love my purse, it's too much for one shoulder. I'm also going to get this but I can't decide on a color. I'm torn between Black/Teal Trim, Blue, or Tomato. Thoughts? Never mind. I saw that they were running low so I picked the Blue one.

Ok, I am falling asleep so I will say goodnight for now. It's only 11pm on a Saturday. Getting older suuucks.
Vulcans Do Not Feel: blahblah
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21 March 2013 @ 10:28 pm
I'm giving it another try. Twenty-seven isn't too old right?

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